Motivation is an enigma to me. I can't seem to really nail down what the ingredients are to motivating myself. Sometimes it takes a clever ruse in my own head, tricking myself into hard work under the pretense that something good and most likely trivial will follow. Others, I have to consider the consequences of inaction. Still other times I find it's simply a switch that I can turn on at a spontaneous whim.
These, and others, are ways I've retroactively looked back and said "yes, that is what motivated me this past time. Perhaps it will motivate me in other similar situations. I shall try them." The problem is there doesn't seem to be any correlation between situations and their motivational solutions. I'll try any number of those techniques to help myself out, but to no avail most of the time. It's so odd to me: to want to be motivated to do something but not actually be motivated? I mean, I am by definition telling myself "I would like this to be done," and then I somehow lack the interest and drive to actually do anything about it.
I am lying to myself somewhere in that thought process. The key is to figure out where. Clearly I don't want to do the things I'm trying to do, or I'm not as willing to do the work required as I thought. Or, I need to crack the code. Either way, I need to do something fast. College doesn't graduate itself... or something like that.
This is essentially a college-aged high school xanga post. ":( i don't know who i am :( cmmnt plz!"
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I really believe that finding motivation, in the context of which you're speaking, is impossible for some. Motivation must find us.
As someone who is perpetually late to work, I wonder "What can I do to get up on time? I WANT to go to work on time, I set my clock, why am I ALWAYS late?"
But the truth is motivation. I don't like my job, I don't feel motivated when I'm here, I come to earn a paycheck and live life because I'm told thats what adults do. I get my ass here, but on the inside, is anything motivating me?
Last summer, at the Goodman, I was late a few times, and I was out sick ONCE. This is totally different than my jobs of the past year, where I miss a day almost every two weeks. I can tell myself to get up and go to work all I want, but the bottom line is, until I'm doing fulfilling work that makes me WANT to be somewhere, internally, forcing motivation won't do shit.
It may be the same for you, until you know what that degree is going towards, until you have a goal for which you really internally are striving, the motivation may not be able to just be called upon.
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